Journal Entry #7
After talking to Washington and Father, I think I have achieved my goal in a way. With my Model-T back and Conklin doing the fixing, my goals are mainly achieved. I am going to take responsibility for what I did, and my gang is going to take the Model-T. They deserved it for backing me up on my view of the case. Although I appreciated them for saying they would go down with me, they don't deserve it. I started this and I will end it. I have gotten the respect through letting my men go and Conklin fixing the Model-T. I just miss my family. My beloved Sarah and my son. I want to see my son. I want to see him grow and fluster. I cant do it with Sarah and I may not be able to by myself. The case curbed my life into a completely different direction. I support what I did for my people, but regret it for my family. They are the ones who suffered for it. I may not make it out of this library without dying. If anyone ever gets to read this, make sure my son is in good care. Also let him know I will miss him and love him very much.
Coalhouse Walker Jr.
Journal Entry #6
My gang and I have done a lot of damage to the fire department and officials. We have destroyed two fire houses and killed many firefighters and cops. Its not that we are here to just kill people, but we have a cause. We want my car fixed and restored along with the fire chief, Will Conklin. He was the reason for all of this madness. If he wouldn't have treated me with such disrespect and racism, all of these incidents could have been avoided. Nobody would have died and those fire houses wouldn't be rubble. The way us Africans are treated is absolutely despicable and we demand respect. That is the deeper meaning of our rein of terror. The way my car was ruined showed the respect I was getting, which was damaged. Me getting my car repaired and receiving Conklin shows that I have been given respect. And when that is not done, I am going to destroy more fire houses and kill more people until justice is served. I cant get my wife back but I can get my car and my respect. That is all I am asking. Right now I am holding up the J.P Morgan Library with a hostage. I am going to blow this place up and keep the hostage without justice soon. It is their choice. If they really don't care about blacks, they are willing to destroy a library and potentially kill more people.
Coalhouse Walker Jr.
Journal Entry #5
My life has been ruined. My dear Sarah has been killed. The roots to my tree, the water to my seed is gone. I loved her, and we were going to grow old together. The case has ruined my life, as it has taken away a huge piece of my life. That piece was my family. The high white officials have not only destroyed my car but killed my wife too. They have treated us blacks with no respect or remorse. They have not helped me at all and killed my life. I have respectfully tried to get justice but have not been given any help. It is now time to use force. Nobody is going to go out of the way to help me so I am going to make them help me. They are going to regret not fixing my car and having Conklin apologize. They don't think I pose a threat but O are they wrong. I will single handedly destroy the state of New York until I get justice. Not only for me but all blacks in this country. I will make sure they will always remember my name, and realize what we are capable of.
Coalhouse Walker Jr.
Journal Entry #4
After continuous efforts of trying to get justice for my damaged Model-T, none has been equated for my own being. I have complained to the town and asked for justice and they just have not given me any help. They are just waiving my claims off as they mean nothing. They are treating my problem as a damaged shirt or shoe rather than a car. I greatly appreciate the father of the house who Sarah has lived with for offering me help, but that is not necessary. It is my problem to resolve. I am holding off my marriage until after my case is through. The real shame of the situation is that it has impaired my life and relationship with Sarah. I love Sarah very much, but I feel that this case is very important. Will Conklin needs to be penalized for what he did to me, and I just will never let this case go until justice is served. If I don't get my car fixed and an apology from Will Conklin, we are going to have problems.
Coalhouse Walker Jr.
Journal Entry #3
I cant believe how people in this world can be so cruel. They just exclude and are so racist to us blacks. I just had another great day with Sarah and I am just casually driving home. These firefighters then stop me and tell me to pay a preposterous toll of $50! I know this is a lie because I always drive on that road with no problems. When I state my case which seems valid, they just don't cooperate with me. They don't even let me leave with my car. I go to get help from a cop who basically just says they mean well when I know they are scamming me due to my race. They then VANDALIZE MY CAR!! It is ruined and they wont fix it. I continue to fight for myself and then the cops come and arrest me. The whole incident was preposterous and very unfair. I was not getting the help and assistance I deserve only because of the color of my skin. They completely destroyed my car because they expected me to back to down from them. They think I am inferior but I am not. If I was white, I wouldn't have been stopped in the first place. I am going to fight for my car to be fixed until there is not a scratch to be seen, and blacks need to be seen as equals.
Coalhouse Walker Jr.
Journal Entry #2
I cant even describe the excitement I am feeling right now! Today I asked Sarah to marry me and she said yes! I am the luckiest man in the world to now be engaged to such a lovely young lady. I am still in shock that she said yes. Our last visit was good, but I wasn't sure we were at this level yet. We were growing a little closer as she has been accepting me a little at a time. I guess she just thought about the great aspects of marriage between us and said yes. As she stepped into my Ford with our lovely baby with this happiness that I haven't seen in her in a long time, I knew she was the one. The way she smiled and acted with such easiness made me cringe. She was the most magnificent person I have ever seen. I cant wait to spend my life with her. We are going to have the most lovely family and are going to have the best of times. I would only want to spend the rest of life with one person and one person only, and that would be Sarah. We are the perfect couple and I don't see anything that I dislike in her. She is perfect in my eyes. And we will be perfect parents for our son. He will be able to grow and learn in the company of two people who will support him. My life could not be any better.
Coalhouse Walker Jr.
Journal Entry #1
O boy, today is going to be a very big day. I have finally found where my beloved Sarah is. After months of searching, I can hopefully get back my love. I am filled with a lot of worry. What if she doesn't want to speak with me. I know we left our relationship off on the wrong track but maybe she will see past it. Maybe she will rekindle that love we had instead of the dislike towards me. What if she is sick? There are numerous diseases and sicknesses that plague the world, and Sarah could have gotten them. O if anything bad would happen to her I think I would lose my mind. The other most important thing is seeing my son. I just want to see my beloved son. I bet he is the most beautiful creature by creation. But what if he didn't make it. Sarah could have not been able to cope with the troublesome of a child and not treated him well enough. And will the occupants of the home even let me in due to my race? The way us blacks are treated nowadays I wouldn't be surprised if I was sold off into slavery again. They should once I show my confidential and kind manner. I just hope I can see my loved ones again. They are my only concern in my life right now. If I can connect with Sarah, we can get back to the old days of our happiness.
Coalhouse Walker Jr.
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